I have a question?.....

Who can tell me how to close this account?....I am never here....someone please tell me .....sorry, of not giving greetings istead.... goodbye ya'll

....how long has it been?....wow..

Hello, My fellow bloggers.... Its been WAY TOO LONG...I have been really good... *thinks for a minute* yea, i have... work is ok..almost going to hit a year working there...I can't believe it... *sighs* yea, alot has happened since the last time i updated my blogg.. where to start...been out having a blast....a few drama here and there with male and feamles. I havent had any drama lately as well. I have made alot ov new friends this past couple months, especially the summer, that was a really good time for me. My new friends are great, entertaining, funny jackasses. Every now and then I'll hangout with them, whenver i get a chance (I guess). It seems like these year really went by too fast, especially, my friends graduation... I gave away a few framed drawings as a gift. I really had a great time with these guys and girls, they still talk to me, which is a good thing. Especially, when i need to talk to someone, so I wouldnt be bored. So, I would say, I am having a great time. Work, is another story. Everyday is the same old shit,somedays are just soo funny. We would go to parties after work, and somehow I'll manage to be back at home...waking up with a really bad hangover hahaha.... good times, am telling you.

There was a little metalfest out here in the reservation...it was pretty badass, better than the last one...last time, some idoitic chick wanted to start up shit with me, but i back down on that offer, she seem just a little too much intoxicated and it wasnt worth it to me...*laughs* It really wasnt am telling you, I've got better things to deal with, then an drunked idiot..lol all i said was "until next time" and that time was this past saturday. She was there, but acting all inocent. Whatever, thats not the important thing right now hahaha

Well, theres lot more to say, but I really don't know where to start *laughs* I mean its been way to long, and I just cant really think right now...I wish i had more time to talk about it, but am not all there right now. So far, there has been alot ov good shows this fall. well, tonight was Slayer & megadeth... but I really dont feel like going....It's payday today as well. I am just here online instead *laughs* I missed out on A.G.A.T.G. last wed. (Arsonists get all the girls) out in Farmington... I had other important matters to attend to, well, not really, but i had to....family matters. All I could say is I hope I go see DIR EN GREY next month (5th) I found out I wrok that night, but if my boss wont swtich it with another co-worker, (FUCK IT) am going, rather she likes it or not. She dont know what am talking about, I dont care, I gotta go!!!! that would be my early birthday present *laughs* I am just too excited to think about it. Almost everyday I listen to them. I am soo excited tho. I am really looking foward to it

Ok, I guess I'll stop here, cuz...I dont what else is important right now *drops glasses*...ok ya'll until next time my fellow bloggers

*myvster out*

hey blooger ppl...am back one time only lol

wow, now really, ho long its rally been??????? forever!!! hahaha yesterday was fun....

I had 3 days off from chaos work *laughs* am just constantly working day in.....such exhausting as well....but as long as I have a damn job!! *laughs*but yesterday was my last chance to have a great time!! so now, here I am at my aunts place bloggin with my cuz (tish) and alex and kada on another laptop myspacing it lol.........they're my cuzin's friends that I met yesterday and a couple hrs ago *laughs*

Today, we headed out to ABQ, to hangout as usual,because I wanted to have a blast on my 3days off, since theres no one else to hangout. I thought I go out again this weekend with my cuzin's. We had to go a little early because my cuzin and her boyfriend (jb) *thinks* had to be at this card game at a comic store, we picked him up,and his friends *laughs* cameron, and alex. we were introduced *sighs* so we went straught to the comic store *laughs in confusion* Once we got there I was like WTF *laughs* but I browsed around while they gathered at the tables,pulling up chairs,busting out their cards...it was really interesting *laughs* so sat with them, just so I won't feel left out *winks* as I watched them bring out their decks *drops jaw* I couldn't believe how much cards everyone had. *laughs* I see everyone copetting, as my cuzin , watching the masters. She said she wasn't there quite yet *laughs* For 5hrs they played, I had NO FUCKING CLUE, as to how the game was palyed. She was going to teach me, but I said, its ok *laughs* because I know I'll get lost *laughs* *sighs* yup, I wasn't bored, I was just fascinated by how they enjoyed it...I was just too busy txting txtin TXTING *laughs*

After 8pm, we (6) were crowded in her car. i sat in the back with cameron,alex, and another guy named josh *laughs* while my cuzin and josh (jb) were up front. The game was over, so we all got in the car to dropp off her buddies *laughs* I just didn't want to be sitting on them *laughs even more* ..... ^_^ I also didn't want them to squish my subway sandwich *drops the beer* ......so we dropped off josh first (jb), then the rest..................well Alex wanted to hangout with us. We got invited to one of her other friends birthday party (Victor) at 8pm. We took a while to get there. Once we got there, I guess the party just started. Earlier we stopped at a convient store (711) to get beer, beacause it was an B.Y.O.B. *laughs* well not really as much as I wanted. I just bought myself an tall can of Mickey's and Budweiser *laughs* but I left it in the car. We entered the party, I mean talk about "A Sausage Fest" *laughs*. OMG, it was dead, there wasn't anybody there yet. We stood there for a couple minutes, so I told my cuzin (tish and Alex) "let's go"...........so we did, at the sametime, we thought of buying a deck of regular cards to bring to the party,apparently, it was just boring being there. They had a DJ playing, BUT I heard them play nitorious "Who Shot Ya"..............well not really, but I know they were using the beat..........*laughs again*

We met up with another friend of tish's (Miyoshi), picked her up, just so we wouldn't feel like the only females there......we bought the damn cards. We headed back to the party, this time, they're were EVEN MORE PPL there!!!.............it got really COLD as well *shakes* we just stood around being stupid as the party went on *laughs* The band was great They had materials from sublime and other modern reagge bands, too bad the apartment was small, bacause it was fucking packed *sighs* everybody were getting her groove on!!! Some guy almost sterted grindding on me lol from being to crowded *laughs* . He would of fallen on Alex, which almost happened *laughs* IDK, thats what he said!! *can't stop laughing* we left after an hr, I couldnt stand being there. It wasn't really my scene. So all 4 of us just headed back to her aunt's apartment.

Now, here we are...........I just finished my Mickey's, now working my way to the Budweiser *laughs* well thats all for this morning...............gotta see whats going on in the kitchen...l8r

Hey, how's everyone doing here??? well it has been a long time here at blogger.com well where to start, I am doing okay, just finished up on a online application that I've been waiting for 60 days.....I finally got it. I just hope that I get the job. Life is hard without money, car, etc. I've been unemployed for 2, no wait, 3 and a half months now. The previous job was ok, but it was at a bad time. I tried to get my old job I use to work at for 3 yrs. They say I don't have any hours, so I left McDonalds, here I am at deann's home, to look or apply more and more jobs, besides updating on music (jrock,hip-hop etc.) So far I am just at home, taking care of my lil sister robyn, waking up early to get her ready for pre-school every week. Day in Day out I do that,besides, cleaning around the house, putting food on the table. lol It's better than drinking. Thats my news as well. I slowly started to STOP drinking and STOP smoking, its a bad habit if you do it ALL THE TIME but that ain't me, I slowly am quiting, well not drinking, but I know I haven't dranked in a while. *high five*

So lately I've just been starting to take long walks, excercise a little, while am at home everyday hahaha feeling a little bored around the house, espsecially when YOU HAVE NOO MONEY!!!

It's starting to get really hot out here. Today, I went up the hills, but only made it halfway, its too damn HOT now.........I usually just take pictures as I walk, just to see how pretty it looks out here thats my HOME SWEET HOME *_*

well this pic looks a little too small and blurry, but you still see it

There's home on the right side, and my auntie on the far left side HOMEHeres a pic I took I am on the far left, colby (center) and corey on the far right, looking cool, it looks funny ^_^

So thats what I've been doing lately these days. I also forgot to mention that I have been drawing, which was 3 weeks ago. I am just too lazy right now to start another one. well I am hoping I accomplish another reita portrait......I still need to do one on Kai........

Well here's KYO (my babe lol) so far, so good lol I want to do another one, but I need total concentration

wow.....how long has it been??? 0_o hhhmmmmmm

Well here I am once again.....I just had to re-read that last blogg. dang, I swear I don't remember any of that... *scratches head* that doesn't even sound like me........its weird hahaha
so *sighs* how was new years carry??? well I had a great time. I went back home christmas day, made dinner for family, my sister and I had a great holiday, even thou am not much into the holidays, but we still had it. We did for the little ones (my lil brother and sister, colby,robyn) so later on as it got colder and mistier, a dance was being held at a little shack out here. so I went with my sister and her boyfriend (dinah,jonah) to setup for his band, I just wanted to tag along and have a few couple drinks, but not liqour tho. *grosses out* before that I figure I try a new kind of beer, not that budweiser crap that every navajo drinks around here lol I bought Hinekein I dont know if I spelled it right lol well anyways, I bought a 4pk for myself since I tried that once at a bar. So I took that with me, as we drove and drove to the dance, OMG out of nowhere there was a check point at the drive off *gasps for air* oh man that really scared me, at the sametime I had an opened one in my hand. theres no room to hide it or stuff it somewhere, because I sat in the back squished with 2 amps and a guitar, so I had nothing....I felt stage fright or something ugh man .........the good thing was that the vehicle that was ahead of us was being check and had to pulled over, as they were, here I am trying to think of a way to dispose the beer in my hand!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I thought, scared as FUCK so I just threw it under the seat and pushed it further and further..........sametime, I tried not to look nervous >_<>

well anyways, tonights a new blogg intry. my new year resolution is to save up for denver. I know that I wanted to go with deann this month, but I don't have any money. (my fault) so now I'm planning on moving back home, work at a convient store in town, firgure thats the best way to get a job right away. so I'm going to work and work til the summer comes around. I am not myself without my best friend...........yeah it sounds gay or corny but thats me *slaps the cats* *smiles* so I am really looking foward to it soo excited even tho, its 6months away from now. yup I wana get away as well (doesn't everyone??) lol ugh....deann's playing glass skin.....hahaha god I luv that song!!! she knows its my fav. just hanging out with deann, blogg, myspacing etc.

Can't resist that cute, cuddly kittens haha

ruki looking adorable *laughs*
finally got milo's pic *takes a sip of coke*.... *alomost chokes*

anyways, where was I??? oh, yeah deann got me a FUCKING BADASS HIDE poster that I didn't expected!!! lol I've always tried to look for that pic, I never did.....thanks again deann going to hang it up when I get home, I don't care what my brother thinks loltheres deann hiding, well shes not, I told her to get in the pic as well lol *licks poster*

which I left a big space back at my place. It's ok though, because january is our last month living there so I just came back home, since I got nothing there to stick around for. I don't have a job, so might as well work here in town. I just took back somethings that I really need while the rest is back at the appartment. so carrry?????!!!!!! *giggles* would you like to buy off that AOI drawing I did??? I know you know which one am talking about.....I mean I don't mind selling it to you. I don't like it the way it turned out. thats usually how I am after I've finished one after another.....but if you wana buy it off of me, that be great I need to start selling some of my portraits lol (whatever you call it)

which reminds me, I need to but frames for all that are hanging in my room. the kizuki pic i haven't finished at all I stopped. I don't really have time to finish it *sighs*

well guess I'll stop here!!!! (deann) lol have fun and enjoy (i guess) lol *laughs out loud*

until next time my friends

anyways, I'm not finished....

well I ment that I I WAS INTO THE DIMMU BORGIR phase!! lol, I bought an dimmu borgir DVD, and man It FUCKING KICKS ASS DUDE!!! makes me young again!!!! LOL well I spend like 23.99 on that DVD, so no BIGGIE!! lol anyways, after that,w e went home and I hung out with my family for almost a whole week and a half!!! thats crazy!! LOL I am still jobless here,nothing else, just myself. enjoying life as it goes lol. well my phones off anyways. I didn't want (lil byron tujillio) macking on me!! HELLL NNOO!!! well, he did, but that was unexpected!! MOTHERFUCKER!!! I HATE THAT SHIT!!! THATS MESSED UP DUDE!!! lol well thats how far it went (deann) I didn't want it to go any further alright???? you know, I ain't that kind of chick ????? I ain't ypur cosion!! lol I just ended up macking on him!! lol HELL NOOOO!!! I ain't going down like that.. l;ol
You know me deann. But I know thats suprising thou. lol (O_O) GOD!!! I WISH THAT DIDN"T HAPPENED!!! well at least I told ja shooo!!! lol what else is there to talk about??? nothing??? lol well thats what happened and I didn't want it to go any further!! After that, drama happened here and there with tia and her man, so we are now crashing at her place...(hope lil byron doesn't come over) it
s just jamie and I that are still awake!!!! no one wants to drive back to RIO!!!! lol so hopefully, jame and I stay up til rachelle, TIA, and ronnie wake up later on!!! lol so I am just going to maybe change my profile or something else...... 0_0 my eyes hurt a little, I am going to fight it!!! just to stay awake!! uuuuuhhhh hhhhhuuuuuhhhh STAY AWAKE SHERISE!!!! lol A whole lot of drama!!! I DON"T WANT TO CRASH OUT! NNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! lol

todays the day.........

well, I've been having a really good night lately. theres nothing else to compare with that...lol
well first of all, the start of my was ok (I guess) I just laied around all day, did nothing, just kick back to kill time, as it went bye and bye. Nothing to strat off the day, by having your sister working before you!!! how awfu l is that??? dang?? hopeless?? WOW?? anyways, after that, I just hanged out with my family. choping and bring wood home. Well dinah, corey,jonah and I went to james's house, to play pool, while james's and jonah jammed together all night, while, corey and I were full of fires and hamburger's in our stomach;....so we waited til the time came. So we eneded up leaving after we saw them play. Right now, I am just pissed off and fustrated with whatever the hell's going on around here!!!! I hear that my mother and step father are having an argument again. I just hate to see people witness's that everyday. When they should just mind their OWN FUCKING BUISNESS!!! (*_*) thats what I think!!! zYOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN ???? Well, I hope that your family see's me as an usual, cool, modern, person, that thinks for whats right???
I don't really like whats going on with the world today!!!!! I really don't!!! someone needs to listen to teengers these days!!!
well, I am fustraded with that BULLSHIt!! well, I am in santa fe right now. the whole plan was to jump in with rachelle and go back to santa fe, to return the LEVEL 2 keys , no matter what the causes were, if you'd live 2 or 3 hrs away from the station!!! lol hahahaha, so Ronnie, Jame and I went. When we got there , she turned in the key, while we waited for a couple of mintues. then that came along, so now I am up alone at TIA's house. something just happened ( I am not saying) so now jamier and I are opn the net, well not her! lol Yup, she did crash put!! I am afraid to go asleep!!! I don't trust myself either!!! anyways, after we returned the keys, we went staright to rachelle's cousions house (TIA TRUJILLIO)'s house. we just kicked it with her and drank an 18 pk that I boughty for rachelle the night B4 when, she stopped by lol. we halled ass to cuba. just to get an 18 pk!! lol it was worth it!!! so we cruised cuba for a while, the, halled ass back to torreon, then, a phone called came up from the penatentry to tell rachelle that she had to go into overtime the next day. So we ended up halling ass back to torreon, to get my stuff!! , to head back striaght back to Rio. while everyone was woeking, jamie and I stayed up thru the night, so boredless!! (*_*) we kept track of waht waws going on thru the busy night, as we went on with our buisness we went on and on, hanging out with Tia's family, as we drank the night away.....drama happened here and there so I ignored it. I WAS TOO INTO THE