Hey, how's everyone doing here??? well it has been a long time here at blogger.com well where to start, I am doing okay, just finished up on a online application that I've been waiting for 60 days.....I finally got it. I just hope that I get the job. Life is hard without money, car, etc. I've been unemployed for 2, no wait, 3 and a half months now. The previous job was ok, but it was at a bad time. I tried to get my old job I use to work at for 3 yrs. They say I don't have any hours, so I left McDonalds, here I am at deann's home, to look or apply more and more jobs, besides updating on music (jrock,hip-hop etc.) So far I am just at home, taking care of my lil sister robyn, waking up early to get her ready for pre-school every week. Day in Day out I do that,besides, cleaning around the house, putting food on the table. lol It's better than drinking. Thats my news as well. I slowly started to STOP drinking and STOP smoking, its a bad habit if you do it ALL THE TIME but that ain't me, I slowly am quiting, well not drinking, but I know I haven't dranked in a while. *high five*

So lately I've just been starting to take long walks, excercise a little, while am at home everyday hahaha feeling a little bored around the house, espsecially when YOU HAVE NOO MONEY!!!

It's starting to get really hot out here. Today, I went up the hills, but only made it halfway, its too damn HOT now.........I usually just take pictures as I walk, just to see how pretty it looks out here thats my HOME SWEET HOME *_*

well this pic looks a little too small and blurry, but you still see it

There's home on the right side, and my auntie on the far left side HOMEHeres a pic I took I am on the far left, colby (center) and corey on the far right, looking cool, it looks funny ^_^

So thats what I've been doing lately these days. I also forgot to mention that I have been drawing, which was 3 weeks ago. I am just too lazy right now to start another one. well I am hoping I accomplish another reita portrait......I still need to do one on Kai........

Well here's KYO (my babe lol) so far, so good lol I want to do another one, but I need total concentration

wow.....how long has it been??? 0_o hhhmmmmmm

Well here I am once again.....I just had to re-read that last blogg. dang, I swear I don't remember any of that... *scratches head* that doesn't even sound like me........its weird hahaha
so *sighs* how was new years carry??? well I had a great time. I went back home christmas day, made dinner for family, my sister and I had a great holiday, even thou am not much into the holidays, but we still had it. We did for the little ones (my lil brother and sister, colby,robyn) so later on as it got colder and mistier, a dance was being held at a little shack out here. so I went with my sister and her boyfriend (dinah,jonah) to setup for his band, I just wanted to tag along and have a few couple drinks, but not liqour tho. *grosses out* before that I figure I try a new kind of beer, not that budweiser crap that every navajo drinks around here lol I bought Hinekein I dont know if I spelled it right lol well anyways, I bought a 4pk for myself since I tried that once at a bar. So I took that with me, as we drove and drove to the dance, OMG out of nowhere there was a check point at the drive off *gasps for air* oh man that really scared me, at the sametime I had an opened one in my hand. theres no room to hide it or stuff it somewhere, because I sat in the back squished with 2 amps and a guitar, so I had nothing....I felt stage fright or something ugh man .........the good thing was that the vehicle that was ahead of us was being check and had to pulled over, as they were, here I am trying to think of a way to dispose the beer in my hand!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I thought, scared as FUCK so I just threw it under the seat and pushed it further and further..........sametime, I tried not to look nervous >_<>

well anyways, tonights a new blogg intry. my new year resolution is to save up for denver. I know that I wanted to go with deann this month, but I don't have any money. (my fault) so now I'm planning on moving back home, work at a convient store in town, firgure thats the best way to get a job right away. so I'm going to work and work til the summer comes around. I am not myself without my best friend...........yeah it sounds gay or corny but thats me *slaps the cats* *smiles* so I am really looking foward to it soo excited even tho, its 6months away from now. yup I wana get away as well (doesn't everyone??) lol ugh....deann's playing glass skin.....hahaha god I luv that song!!! she knows its my fav. just hanging out with deann, blogg, myspacing etc.

Can't resist that cute, cuddly kittens haha

ruki looking adorable *laughs*
finally got milo's pic *takes a sip of coke*.... *alomost chokes*

anyways, where was I??? oh, yeah deann got me a FUCKING BADASS HIDE poster that I didn't expected!!! lol I've always tried to look for that pic, I never did.....thanks again deann going to hang it up when I get home, I don't care what my brother thinks loltheres deann hiding, well shes not, I told her to get in the pic as well lol *licks poster*

which I left a big space back at my place. It's ok though, because january is our last month living there so I just came back home, since I got nothing there to stick around for. I don't have a job, so might as well work here in town. I just took back somethings that I really need while the rest is back at the appartment. so carrry?????!!!!!! *giggles* would you like to buy off that AOI drawing I did??? I know you know which one am talking about.....I mean I don't mind selling it to you. I don't like it the way it turned out. thats usually how I am after I've finished one after another.....but if you wana buy it off of me, that be great I need to start selling some of my portraits lol (whatever you call it)

which reminds me, I need to but frames for all that are hanging in my room. the kizuki pic i haven't finished at all I stopped. I don't really have time to finish it *sighs*

well guess I'll stop here!!!! (deann) lol have fun and enjoy (i guess) lol *laughs out loud*

until next time my friends

anyways, I'm not finished....

well I ment that I I WAS INTO THE DIMMU BORGIR phase!! lol, I bought an dimmu borgir DVD, and man It FUCKING KICKS ASS DUDE!!! makes me young again!!!! LOL well I spend like 23.99 on that DVD, so no BIGGIE!! lol anyways, after that,w e went home and I hung out with my family for almost a whole week and a half!!! thats crazy!! LOL I am still jobless here,nothing else, just myself. enjoying life as it goes lol. well my phones off anyways. I didn't want (lil byron tujillio) macking on me!! HELLL NNOO!!! well, he did, but that was unexpected!! MOTHERFUCKER!!! I HATE THAT SHIT!!! THATS MESSED UP DUDE!!! lol well thats how far it went (deann) I didn't want it to go any further alright???? you know, I ain't that kind of chick ????? I ain't ypur cosion!! lol I just ended up macking on him!! lol HELL NOOOO!!! I ain't going down like that.. l;ol
You know me deann. But I know thats suprising thou. lol (O_O) GOD!!! I WISH THAT DIDN"T HAPPENED!!! well at least I told ja shooo!!! lol what else is there to talk about??? nothing??? lol well thats what happened and I didn't want it to go any further!! After that, drama happened here and there with tia and her man, so we are now crashing at her place...(hope lil byron doesn't come over) it
s just jamie and I that are still awake!!!! no one wants to drive back to RIO!!!! lol so hopefully, jame and I stay up til rachelle, TIA, and ronnie wake up later on!!! lol so I am just going to maybe change my profile or something else...... 0_0 my eyes hurt a little, I am going to fight it!!! just to stay awake!! uuuuuhhhh hhhhhuuuuuhhhh STAY AWAKE SHERISE!!!! lol A whole lot of drama!!! I DON"T WANT TO CRASH OUT! NNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! lol

todays the day.........

well, I've been having a really good night lately. theres nothing else to compare with that...lol
well first of all, the start of my was ok (I guess) I just laied around all day, did nothing, just kick back to kill time, as it went bye and bye. Nothing to strat off the day, by having your sister working before you!!! how awfu l is that??? dang?? hopeless?? WOW?? anyways, after that, I just hanged out with my family. choping and bring wood home. Well dinah, corey,jonah and I went to james's house, to play pool, while james's and jonah jammed together all night, while, corey and I were full of fires and hamburger's in our stomach;....so we waited til the time came. So we eneded up leaving after we saw them play. Right now, I am just pissed off and fustrated with whatever the hell's going on around here!!!! I hear that my mother and step father are having an argument again. I just hate to see people witness's that everyday. When they should just mind their OWN FUCKING BUISNESS!!! (*_*) thats what I think!!! zYOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN ???? Well, I hope that your family see's me as an usual, cool, modern, person, that thinks for whats right???
I don't really like whats going on with the world today!!!!! I really don't!!! someone needs to listen to teengers these days!!!
well, I am fustraded with that BULLSHIt!! well, I am in santa fe right now. the whole plan was to jump in with rachelle and go back to santa fe, to return the LEVEL 2 keys , no matter what the causes were, if you'd live 2 or 3 hrs away from the station!!! lol hahahaha, so Ronnie, Jame and I went. When we got there , she turned in the key, while we waited for a couple of mintues. then that came along, so now I am up alone at TIA's house. something just happened ( I am not saying) so now jamier and I are opn the net, well not her! lol Yup, she did crash put!! I am afraid to go asleep!!! I don't trust myself either!!! anyways, after we returned the keys, we went staright to rachelle's cousions house (TIA TRUJILLIO)'s house. we just kicked it with her and drank an 18 pk that I boughty for rachelle the night B4 when, she stopped by lol. we halled ass to cuba. just to get an 18 pk!! lol it was worth it!!! so we cruised cuba for a while, the, halled ass back to torreon, then, a phone called came up from the penatentry to tell rachelle that she had to go into overtime the next day. So we ended up halling ass back to torreon, to get my stuff!! , to head back striaght back to Rio. while everyone was woeking, jamie and I stayed up thru the night, so boredless!! (*_*) we kept track of waht waws going on thru the busy night, as we went on with our buisness we went on and on, hanging out with Tia's family, as we drank the night away.....drama happened here and there so I ignored it. I WAS TOO INTO THE

longtime buddy.........

hahahaha hey I 'm back, you bastards!!! lol I am doing soo good. I've just been chilling day in and day out......rethinking about anything that goes on around here.... I am still looking tru jjobs. i just FINALLY finished up on hastings. I hope I get that job!!!! hahaha I bearly had enough money for rent the other day. I had 6 dollars in quarters....it was funny. I rather used that for laundry, but I had to pay that rent right away, otherwise I'd be moving back to the reservation O_O but rachelle was kind enough to pay the 40 dollars that I was short on... (thanks to her >_<)......other than that, not much with me. I am finally blogging again. (sorry carry hahah *_* ) didn't mean to keep you waiting......cuz I know that I needed to update on my blogging. lol for the past 3 days, I've been drawing like crazy. I am only 3 pages away from finishing a sketch book 18"x24'' yup that huge!!! I just finished up one of AOI!!!! yesterday!!! OMG!!! am telling you, that looked good at first, but I really don't like it anymore...maybe later I'll like it lol I also finished one of KANON 2days ago... NOw I really like that one. I want to upload them next time......I ALSO did another one on REITA!!!! now that is a really good looking one!!! both aoi and reita are done with charcoal....I still need to do one on uruha,kai and ruki......the kanon pic, has a little color in it...just for his skin color and his higlights.....but I just finish drawing out another...this is one is kizuki!!! yup KIZUKI!!! I know this is going to take a while to finish up O am maybe just going to color in his red hair, and leave the rest charcoal.... Deann wantes me to do one on DIE VK style...I am working on that maybe tommorrow...... what really makes me nervous is KYO when I draw him, he just makes me really nervous, hahahaha OMG!!! i start to shake. thats why I hardly draw kyo......I want him perfect thats why!!! (>_0)
speaking of nervous, DIRENGREY!!! OMG!!! I just can't wait!!! 2 more fucking days!!!! denver, here we come.... (if were going >_<) I'd be really exciting to go!!! Another best concert ever!!!! so far my to 3 best concerts of 2008 is dimmu borgir (04-14-08) Opeth (10-10-08) and GWAR (11-28-08) haha I can't believe thou direngrey!!!! I still feel bad for my buddy bronzeru, who didn't get to go to direngrey..... in california *cries with him*
well guess I'll stop here and get back to my drawing........... later until next time +_+

yes I know I need to blogg!!!.......

well hows it going for everyboday?? I am doing good. I finally remembered to blogg. i forgot last time haha well anyways, I am still laying around being lazy (well not really) still hoping I get an interview....jobless here.......but I am glad that I don't work at my previous job. (mc'd's) (>,<) I've been kicking back, usually cleaning.......last week sucked, because my phone was off for a whole week and a half. I did a little drinking, but not latlely tho, *smiles* I mean being bored everyday is better than drinking everyday. (even thou I have no money) (>_<) I've just been cooking also........waiting for my cousins to come back from work and school. right now am with rachelle at the library, finally blogging, since deann and carry say that I need to update!!! *angry* hahaha well am suprised you two read this........lol not to be mean.....ok moving on, well deann talked to me about "UROBOROS" telling me how it sounds. To me, when she told me, I got even got happier and happier everytime she told me especially about KYO!!!!! *jrools* OMG!!! All I can do is imagine, while I wait on deann to give me my copy!!! I MISS MY IPOD!!!! I am thinking my ipod is long gone for now, figure that my cuz forgotten about it, the last time I was there I am soo stupid to forget about my ipod *slaps myself* Ugh!!! well I'll just buy the bigger ones......well now I am broke, theres alot of things I wanted to buy, well first I wanted to buy the 3rd and 4th vol. books for high school debut.....but right now its all NANA NANA NANA!!!!! lol *smiles* that just has alot of drama.......usually rachelle and I talk about it she's thinking if theres a NANA 3, I said I am not sure, I don't think soo though.... (0_o)

Ugh if there is I need to look for it.....we actually cried to that movie hahahaha I could see how reachelle was into it. she yell,laugh,talk shit........hahaha I'm telling you if you don't know NANA you've got too!!! well I never really finished reading it....so I figure y finish reading it, while I got both 1 and 2 (>_0)

so right now I am just going to hand over my laptop to deann, so she could take it to the high school and hopefully they fix it..............once its fixed I won't be missing out on my bloggs 9right girlds????) *sighs* what a day dying of boredom!! :( theres usually nothing to do around rio rancho........first time deann thought I be out everyday But i ain't not because I am broke...it gets boing sometimes.....its usually fun when my family come down or when deann stops by. I am out of the apartment the whole day.....well last weekend rachelle, jamie and I hung out allday and out of the apartment....we cruised just tried to kill time good thing theres no BEER involved.....because we didn't feell like drinking lol NOWAY

DIRENGREY is all I want to hear right now!!!! I do want to go but you know..............................I've alrady explained it on the last blogg.....

Three day weekend!

Yesterday, well two nights ago, we had a lil party at the apartment. i don't remember whens the last time we drank there, usually it be somwhere else......well anyways, there we were just chilling and having a beer. Waiting for the news. Apparently, one of my grandmas died in a accient it was shocking to hear. I was devasteaded to hear.......so we sat around after we saw it. It's carzy, just to see that a grandma that I never really knew dies. *cries*
so then we invited to people over to hangout with us. they did so we just talked and talked all night. talking about how great it is to have a african american for president. we were glad, even thou I didn't get to vote, because I am not even registered hahaha.........well anyways, just can't believe how much races people are still around. O_O I am not going get into talking about politics. lol I don't like it >_< the next day, rachelle and I went back home for something I don't know. I was just by her side, because I know that she didn't want to go by herself. *smiles* I was haging and felt like shit!!! I really don't remember anything, but I know I didn't do anything carzy or stupid! today's the mudvayne concert, I would want to go but I haven't even gotten the GWAR tickets for the 28th. well at the sametime I know that deanns stressing out about diregrey I mean I DO WANT TO GO!! I just hope that the weather turns out fine! thats the only problem, I am still up for it. My so-called freinds wouldn't mind, but they don't talk anymore (which I don't care) I got other best friends..... *smiles* Up so I just need to get the GWAR tickets first I maybe I'll go to mudvayne tonight I'm not sure!!!! then theres inflames 3days B4 gwar and soulfly a day B4 gwar as well. so wish I had a better check so I could go to all the shows!!!!! so deann, you know that I am still up for DIRENGREY, its just the waether that might scare me.......am sorry I REALLY WANA SEE KYO!!!!! *cries and runs off*
well rachelles waiting on me, so I update on my blogg again next time LATERZ PPL